manusia bodoh

Dahulu terasa indah, Tak ingin lupakan.
kemesraan selalu jadi, satu Kenangan manis.
Tiada yang salah, Hanya aku manusia bodoh.
Yang biarkan semua ini, permainkanku ...
Berulang ulang ulang kali.
Mencoba bertahan sekuat hati...
Layaknya karang yang Dihempas sang ombak.
Jalani hidup dalam buai belaka.
Serahkan cinta tulus di dalam takdir.
Tak ayal tingkah lakumu
Buatku putus asa
Kadang akal sehat ini
Belum cukup membendungnya
Hanya kepedihan,
Yang s'lalu datang menertawakanku
Engkau belahan jiwa.

tha tha

before I actually passed from you ...
one truth that I want to say to you
the reasons for my behavior

I'm sorry if I hurt you ...
I was also hurt by all this ...
but it was not you who hurt me ...
my thoughts and my own feelings of hurt me ...

recently I think you're away from me ...
and you know that I really need you ..
you are my breath of joy ..
without you my day to be a gray day ..

I try to understand about your busy ..
but my heart would not accept ...
I'm selfish ... because I'm sue you to spend a little time with me every day.
you say you can not ...

but then I found you often appear ...
but not for me ...
you are here and there ... with this and that ....

I was annoyed ... rage over me ..
then I thought ... why should I be angry? when I saw you close to other people??
and I realized ... it was all because I was afraid to lose you ...

and why should I be afraid to lose you??
we are not what what ... we are just ordinary friends ...

but not pige ...

I now realize that there is another sense my heart ..
I get confused ... I'm nervous .. restless and SHY ..

because we promise to just friends and not be more than that ...

but I can not help feeling this ...

That's why I chose away from you ...
because I can no longer there beside you, and dismiss this love ..

I just tried to kill this feeling ..

though it hurts me and I know also that this will make you sad ..

I'm sorry pige ..
I really never thought this would happen ..
I think our friendship will be forever ...
but sorry I was not able to maintain the sanctity of our friendship ...

I'm sorry I had soiled his sacred friendship

I Don’t Want To Miss A Thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While youre far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what youre dreaming
Wondering if its me youre seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing

akyu ikyu kyut tha ???

Katha ummy akyu ghadish phaalink kyuth tyadha dhuana.

Thapy ityu duwluh...
Syebellom adyc kyu yaang maaniieezz laahyr.

Taphy kiyny gag laaghy...
Baghy ummy...
Skarank aadhikquw pwalink kyuut... Pwalink imyut...
N pwalink dy chayank...
Uuughh!!!

Akyu khan anax phertama? Knapha akyu dy nowmor duwain?

Hmm baixlah...
Akyu emank haaruz mengallah, paadha adyx kyu ther chynta...

Taphy akyu tax rewlah zady yank Qe duwah.

Akyu yaQyn daan pherchayya. Swaatu zaat naanthy khan dhatang checheorank,
Bellahand zywwa Yank khan menganggap akyu zattu zattunyah gaadish ther kyuth dy muwka bummy inny..
Qynni akyu menungghu...

chapa U chapa Q ???

U chapa? Q ga pnah tau... Yg Q tau hanyalah bahwa Q chayank u lbih dr yg laen...
AQu chapa? Mungkin bkan chapa chapa bagy u... Yg Q tau hanyalah kau bilang bahwa u chayank ma Q...

Benarkah Qita salink chayank??? Sbagai apa? Teman? Skedar sahabat...? Tpy knapa terkadang butuh lebih dri itu? Dan knapa pula secebis cemburu mengusik hati?

Lalu adakah chayank itu biasan asa yang enggan d sebut cinta?
Benarkah ini cinta sang pencinta?
Q rasa no... Bukan.. Bukan itu....
Coz Q tak pernah bermimpi tuk memiliki u... n Q rasa u pun tak ingin memiliku...
Lalu...
Chapa u n chapa Q?
Dan mengapa Qita haruz salink chayank??!

tears in silence

Is this wrong?
if I think there are now different between you and me?
Did you know? we are now further away?
or maybe that was what you wanted?

I tried so long to survive,
in a quiet and silent, without greetings from you.
try to understand it on your busyness.
and be patient wait until you get back ..

Day after day I spent in a quiet ...
sometimes haunted me nervous.
when the longing for your presence ....
makes me want to cry ...

but do you realize with all this??
or you really do not care??
there I was too much to ask?
about something that I should not expect from you?

If you think this is just a series of words
I like the creative work of the poet ..
it would be futile tears ...
accompany each letter I type in for you ....
just for you .... pigeon .....!!!

"from someone who drowned in silence"

* whiterose *

cinta

cinta ..
apa kabarmu hari ini ?
masihkah cinta bersemayam di hatimu ?
masihkah cinta menjadi lagu terindah hidupmu ?
masihkah cinta menjadi alasanmu tuk terus bersamaku ?

oh cinta ...
apa kabarmu hari ini ?
sekian banyak hal yang kita lalui ...
masihkah cinta itu tetap membara di hatimu ?
masihkah cinta itu menjadi bingkai hidup kita?

ah cinta ...
apa kabarmu hari ini ?
tanyaku bukan berarti ku ragu padamu ...
tanyaku adalah kiasan resahku ...
karena dapat ku sadari ..
ku belum berikan yang terbaik untukmu ..

dan cinta ....
kau ingin tahu kabarku hari ini ?
hari demi hari ku makin cinta padamu ..
karena cintamu membuat hidupku indah
cintamu membuat membuat hidupku bahagia ...

tapi cinta ....
jangan pernah kau berhenti mencintaiku ....
dengan segala kekurangan ku ..
dengan segala sifat burukku ..
dengan segala yang tidak ku miliki ...
karena ku takkan bisa hidup tanpamu

wahai cinta ...
ku ingin  hidup bersamamu
selamanya ....

kau adalah bintang bulan dan matahariku

bukan bintang yang ingin kulihat
bukan bintang yang ingin ku gapai
meski ia berkilau bagaikan permata....
bukan itu yang ku mau ...

dan bulan ...
dengan sinarnya yang mempesona ..
tersimpan kecantikan seribu bidadari
bukan  ... bukan dia yang ku ingini ...

mentari itu ...
yang begitu megah di singgasana langit..
dengan segala keangkuhan dan keagungan nya...
juga bukan itu yang ku  impikan ..

biarlah ia hanya sekedar bias kunang kunang di malam hari ..
namun keceriaan yang terpancar ..
dengan canda , tawa. suka dan duka ..
biarlah ia hanya setangkai lilin kecil ....
hadirmu lebih berarti dari sekedar bintang, bulan dan matahari ...
kau lebih berarti .. karena kau ada hanya untukku..
bukan untuk yang lain ..

21 days in cittagong ...

Wednesday 27.april.2011_ monday .17. May.2001

Balikpapan, Wednesday, April 27, 2011 

Major accidents that occurred in the late afternoon before sunset, it became the main topic of the paper. A trailer fulled with a cargo of cement through the brake and drove relieved uncontrollably in the streets who declined to hit a few private cars, taxi and some motors that stopped at the intersection of five trafficlights "R-Park". It causes pileup, 4 private cars, taxi and 3 motors 8 victims, all vehicles were badly damaged, 2 cars and 1 motor burned and caused passengers died place. The others injured, including a young girl where use hijab and riding the pink vario motorcicle.

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Wednesday. 27-April-2011.
Fay gasped when the old lady who sat beside to wake her, ah, who knows how long she slept, the trip from Jakarta- Dhaka takes a longtime and very exhausting.

"Soon we will arrive at the airport" the woman said.

"Oh yes madam, thank you ...."

Fay wiped her face pale and a little tired.

"is there anyone at the airport come to pick up you ?" ask the old lady.

"Ya madam, since at the airport in Jakarta I had call my friend and tell my departure time and arrived in Dhaka estimates, just hope she has waited for me at the airport was" fay said with a bit anxious,

ya ... she is have a right to feel anxious, because this is the first time she visited this country. And for the first time she will meet with her best friend that only had know through cyberspace. And also to meet someone who has a special meaning in her heart. This is a big surprise that she was preparing for that someone. For that fay not tell him about her coming to the bd. Even last night, she was still chatting in cyberspace as usual.

After the plane landed, fay immediately rushed toward the exit. she did not have to queue waiting for the luggage, because she only brought a small travel bag and a handbag.

Fay through the door immediately saw a blue-clad girl standing next to the fence by holding a sheet of paper with write her name. Fay immediately recognize her, even though they never met but fay ever seen from the photos she sent. Her name Raisa, final level of medical student, she was very welcoming and friendly. they age 5 years adrift. Raisa much help fay know a lot about bd, various foods, songs n music and also teaches fay to understand all anything about Bengali.

"Assalamualaikum apu, glad to see you here!!" Cried fay very happy.

Raisa welcomed fay with a warm hug. "Waalaikumsalam, welcome to our country, my sweet sister , hopefully you can have fun here."

"Of course apu" fay said as she returned Raisa hug.

They immediately left the airport to the raisa's boarding place . Raisa comes from another town in bd. she was boarding in Dhaka for medical university in BUET.

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Thursday 28 April 2011. 

The next day, fay met Raisa's fiance, hasib. He is also one fay foster brother who was also very fond of her. Hasib just come from shilyet for business, that's why yesterday he did not come pick fay at the airport.
Hasib and Raisa took fay walk out to see Dhaka city atmosphere, and taste some traditional foods bd. after feel  satisfied around all day they returned to the raisa's boarding house  

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Skip to d next story ....
Fay felt beating aloy. she nervously waiting pige. Raisa who saw it smiled an excuse for fay's anxiety . This is the first meeting with the someone who is very meaningful to her.

"Just calm fay, he will come." Said Raisa trying to convince and to calm the anxiety of fay.

After waiting for 15menit, the guy finally came. Fay watched quietly from behind the black eyeglasses she deliberately wear to hide his face, and acted as if it were she not known about that boy. hmmmm, he look was not much different from the picture she had ever seen, fay muttered to himself. It's just that he looks a little taller and thinner, probably busy in college and living away from their parents make him a little unkempt.

The boy immediately went to their seats after Raisa waved his hand, he shook raisa's hand with warm and immediately sat down right in front of theraisa's seat . Fay do pretend was reading a book in her hand and sometime  occasionally glancing at pige circumstances behind her glasses.

"Raisa oh, sorry I'm late. There was a slight problem with my duties in the classroom. Sorry to keep you waiting long. "Said the boy was full of remorse.

"OK, It's OK, do not worry" said Raisa.

"Well thank you." pige briefly glanced at fay, but soon looked as if it did not heed!

"Huh be ware .... you'll watch out  then..." cried fay in the heart.
"Oh  Raisa. Is there any problem that you asked me to come here? It seems very important ? Ask pige

Yes Pige , this is very important. I think you can help my sister. she comes from abroad and was doing some are research religious here. Now she looking for one of her acquaintance who was read at medical school and was in same level with you. "Raisa immediately launched a trick which she had neatly arranged to joke with pige.

"Oh really ... What was his name that she's looking for?? Maybe I know him, because as you know, our class level of medical students are divided into three classes. "
"you can ask her! "Raisa pointed fay.

"Assalamualaikum" finally fay also spoken out. Fay slowly rolled her eyeglasses and looked sharply towards pige.
"Wa ... Salaam," pige replied stiff and a little startled to see fay look so sharp, he suddenly felt something strange. Not just because of how fay look at him  with sharp eyes. But those eyes ... oh no ... pige feel so familiar with those eyes. But uft... no ... it is not possible, he muttered to himself.
Fay smiled.
"I'm sorry if I disturb you, I'm looking for someone who comes from Chittagong, and Raisa says you also come from cittagong, and those my friend is read at medical clolej at the same place with you.
"No, I do not feel disturbed. Raisa was my host sister, and you also her host sister too, that means we are the same. I would love it if I can help you. "Reply pige.
"Now tell me, who is the someone that are you looking for." ask pige.
"Wait ... I'll show you his photo." Fay opened her purse and took out a photograph then show it to pige.
"Look at this, perhaps you know him!" Fay smiled as she held out a photograph.
Pige took it, he is very confused with what he saw. In it he does not see any picture of someone, that he sees only the picture of a white dove flying over the white rose, and from the wings of red blood dripped, dripped blood fell on the white roses, till most part of the whiterose becomes red,
Pige frowned ... "are you sure this is a pic of the whom you looking for??"  Pige asked in a puzzled voice.
"Ya right" fay replied confidently.
"But I do not see any pic of some one here" pige said again, while it as in his heart a strange feeling coming again, so he looked back into the picture. Oh no ...no ... is not possible. imposible if it was ...... pige cried out loud to himself . It was he overcome by a deep anxiety.
"Look again as well, I think you can recognize it .... Pigeon .. "fay said softly and half-whispered, so soft and gentle the fay voice  .... but it sounds like a very loud thump on the pige's ear , pige heart tremble. he looked again at face of fay, with a very sharp look, fay reveal scarf that covered most of her face, so that now clearly visible appearance of her sweet face.
"Oh god ...." Pige body was shaking, "whiterose ... ..." he said softly and with quivering lips too, he felt like a breath half flying. He froze and looked fay without blinking.
"You know him?, his name is pigeon ..." fay again smiling so sweet.

"Fay ... is that you?? But .. how it posible? owh I must be dreaming!. "Pige still doubtful ..
"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaawwww!"
Pige suddenly cried aloud , and it make so few visitors saw towards them. Pige winced in pain, Raisa  pinched pige's waist very hard.
Raisa chuckled.
"do you fell hurt ? That's mean you're not dreaming. And now looked carefully , who is she now sitting in front of you "said Raisa within try to resist laughing to see pige was in blank. Fay just smiling,
"ya Pige..., it's me....  are you  dont look happy to see me?? "
Pige look intently into the face of fay. he grabbed fay's hand ... oh allah ...., is this really true?? If this is just a dream, please do not let me wake up, let me keep hold this hand, and stared at those beautiful eyes ... pige exclaimed inwardly.
"Hey I'm starving ... i dont eat anything since morning..." fay withdrew her hand from holded of pige, pige jump out on his sat.
Raisa laughed and then ordered some food for them. Pige continued to look at fay's face,  still in disbelief and confusion ...

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4 may 2011
After waiting a week until pige semester exams ended, finally pige took fay to visit his parents' house in cittagong. And Raisa joined with fay after fay pleading her.
After a long journey by bus, they reached at the port city of chittagong. 

as they reached on pige's house, pige's mother and sister greeted them kindly. Fay take mothers hand n touched it in to her face with a litle kiss on mothers palm, that the way of indo people to respect their parents, in contrast with the bangla culture that touches their feet as a form of respect.
Then fay hugged zigy, the only sister of pige who 18th age . This girl is very pretty n her face look like the most of oriental indian face.

Fay was very glad, pige's family really very friendly and greeted her warmly. pige's mother greeted like as welcome her daughter where just returned from overseas. And zigy, although just  now they met but fay already felt very close to her.

*** keep to d next story ***

Chittagong ** ** 17 mei 2011
 its a nice afternoon, pige took fay a walk out to the hills, enjoy the beautiful view from a heigh, from the hill they could see into all corners of the chittagong city, they sat on a fallen tree trunk. soft breeze brushing them.
They're do lot fun, sharing stories and joking with cheerful feeeln. Occasionally pige flicked a rose in to fay's face when he could not answer any joke of fay.
Suddenly a dove came in front of them and perched on a tree branch, pige staring at the pigeon and muttered ...
"So pity the pigeon, why he was flying alone in this beautiful hill?" Murmured pige.
"He may not have a spouse or not meet yet with his partner life, and maybe he is now looking for that ... look!!! ... he looked there and here as though looking for something ..." fay said in joke
Pige smiled bitterly, after a moment he looked at fay's face with deep and sharp , fay became uneasy at him,  the way pige looked at fay make her feel awkward and pounding , his black eyes and sharp looked make her felrt stab to such soul. Fay looked down and hiding her face from the pige's eye.
"Fay ......" pige called softly
Fay slowly lifted her face.
"Should the bird continued to take a long journey from a branch to another branch simply because the rose was never given an answer?" Ask pige full figure
"I do not know pige...., the bird should have known that animals and plants are very different, the flowers live forever in the land right, and the birds will always fly in space, they have two different living environments. only occasionally when the bird was tired he would come perched on a branch of the flowers to release the fatigue and smell the flowers fragrance, And then he will fly back, because is imposible for the birds to keep just onlyl perched without flaps the wings, and the flowers ..... .. only on the land she keep stay forever from life to death. Because even though she pleaded with every prayer and prostration long .... The roses could not have hoped that the gifted of a pair of wings so she could accompany the bird wherever he flying  "fay replied so softly, her eyes became calm, there was a clear drop of independent on her eyelids.
Pige sighing ...... he does not know how to make fay tell the honest about the real feelings. Every time he tried to ask, fay always dodged  .
Suddenly there was a dark overcast closed the sky . Pige rushed pulled fay and move hurry n return to home. But, still not so far they run , the hard rain fell down on them, pige grabbing fay's hand and ran down the hillside, until the intersection pige saw a shack by the roadside, and he took fay to shelter there.
Fay shivering, all the clothes and scarf she wearing was wet, drops of water falling from the tip of her hair. Pige looked at fay as felt worried, he knew that she was allergic to the rain and cold weather.
"are you ok??" Ask pige in worried
"Ya, me fine!" Fay said with trembling lips, this cold weather made she shiver with cold.
Pige come close to fay, he  wiped the raindrops that drenched fay's face .
their face were so close, pige looking into fay eyes so deeply, as if to explore something hidden there, but just a ripple ripples are delicate and faint he could not understand its meaning.
Pige suddenly gasped as fay covered her face with both hands, as if to protect her from something that might happen ....
"Oh, sorry fay ... I did not mean to ......."! Pige become self-conscious.
  he take fay's hand and holding the cold finger of fay warmly, . Fay just silent ......
In her heart she wanted to pull her hand from the pige griped , but the warmth and peace that flows through her fingers through her unable to pull away. And fay was only silence.
fay leaning on pole hut, unconsciously her eyes were closed, enjoying the strange feeling is racing in her heart, which increasingly covered her heart, only to grasp the finger, pige able to channel the warmth, who could drive away the cold rain and wind that rustled. Fay was like being in space, wrapped in a soft, distant white clouds, like dancing and flying with delight. what a feelings that never fay felt before. Fay was the first time felt the peace that is so beautiful ... ...
and a moment later, when consciousness began to return in fay, fay felt something touch her lips, fay immediately opened his eyes, and was struck when she saw pige's face so close in front of her, very close and almost no distance.
Fay pushed hard pige body, so pige fall down on the floor. Fay then ran out of the hut, and just run through heavy rain. Feelings raging within her heart, sense of shame, happiness, and sense of sin ... ..
   This thing is very unusual for a her lifetime because she never allow any man to touched her hand, what even to  touch her face,
While the pige gasped and fell because of the push by fay, immediately he wake up and then pursue fay who kept running in the pouring rain.
There is a feeling of guilt in the hearts of pige, but guilt is nothing more than feeling happy, he's happy ... because he finally knew for sure that fay love him. Now he believes that fay really love. Finally he managed to conquer fay and uncover all the hidden feelings with a "kiss"
'fay, wait ....! "Pige trying to stop fay where was ran out.
But fay do not listen , fay kept running. Pige be worried, because fay not know this hill, and pige knnowed, fay ran toward the abyss so deep and steep.
"Fay, please stop dear!!, there is a ravine in front of you, pliz you stop!." Pige was desperately cried. And kept running after fay.

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Balikpapan 17-mei-2011
In a VIP room Balikpapan Pertamina hospital, looks a little busy, in which there is a girl who was being personalited treated . The girl was in a coma, she was one of the victims of deadly accidents in the  five  intersection  plaza rapax. The girl is the young girl in hijab who drives a motorcicle  pink vario. her motorcycle by trailer n also crushed the girl and burned at the time, and she suffered very serious injuries all over his body. 21 days in the hospital got treatment but there are no sign she will wake up. The girl was in a coma for 21 days.
In the hospital room seemed someone was adorned with white roses, and a little girl carrying a tray with a cake in a beautifully decorated, like a birthday cake, because on top of cake with a candle number 21.
"Whether my sizy would wake up ummy ?" Ask the little girl to her mama.
"Ya dear, let us wish sister fay to wake up."  she said .
Several other family members began to arrive, today is the birthday of the girl's 21. They gathered to pray for her to get well and get up from a long coma.
When finished reading a few verses of al-Quran, the little girl named chevy then approached the bed where fay lay,
"siz fay, pliz wake up, chevy miss you. Chevy wants to play again with sizy, chevy promise will not make mischief and trouble to you again ... .. "chevy said softly in a voice that was sniffed back tears.
Chevy put a little piece of birthday cake, and with loving she put n smeared  it on  fay lips where was looks so dry.
"take it  sizy, pliz  eat ya ... long time ... sizy not eat." Chevy  kiss fay, and she could not stop crying again. Longing to the only sister who was 21 days in a coma as a sad heart. The tears that trickled down the pale face of fay.
"Sizy pliz, let's wake up ..." chevy shook fay with strong on her shoulders. Aby  immediately approached chevy and tried to persuade her and make she calm down, but suddenly chevy rebeled  like crazy again and shook violently as she cry out. Aby trying to hold chevy's hands , chevy accidentally stuck her hand aids breathing tube attached to the nose fay, so that pulled out and released.
Fays body jerked, her whole body trembled in shock and shaking, all the people in the room was in a panic. One of them immediately ran to call the doctor for help.

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Meanwhile, far away there, fay still continue to run through the pouring rain.
Many times pige called her and told  fay to stopped, and warned of the dangers that await her.
But rain over the sound pige. Fay did not hear the warning 4m pige, when the feelings continued raging in her mind, fay did not realize there was a black shadow in front of her. And when she realized, it was too late, fay can not stop her feet when fay arrived in a black shadow that is a very deep ravine and steep. Fay body fell ..
"Allahu akbar ... ....!" Fay yelped in shocked.
pige where is behind of fay immediately caught her hand. Fay body slammed on the edge of a steep ravine.  pige holded strength fay's hand so as not to fall into the abyss. But pige lost his balance, and the rain made pige grip loose. Fay had fallen into a deep abyss, the abyss that was never touched by humans because there is no way to get there.

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In the meantime, while the same room when the hospital where she was in treatmentt, there is tremendous panic, a doctor and several nurses rushed the girl to the emergency room, intensive care unit.
A moment later the doctor called the father and mother of fay, they went into the ICU. Her eyes look slightly open.
"Fay .. you're awake dear .. "
  fay mother immediately embraced with tears in her eyes.
"A .... Aabah, u .... Uu .. mmy ... ..." fay trying to speak with all his strength, but still her voice was low.
"ya dear, we are here" fay parents approached.
"Thank you for your affection for this, but, now I must go. I have to go back to the hill .... Pige waiting for me there. "
Fay parents looked at each other in confusion, they do not understand what the words mean fay.
"I'm sorry, if during my live , fay do so many mistakes and sins to all of you. Fay love you all ,... .... Laaaa ... .. ilaaa ... .. illaaal ... laaah. Mu .... Ham .... Mad..........  rasul ... ... ... .. lul .... lah "after the sentence say that creed. Fay re-closed her eyes. And heartbeat detection machine creaked loudly. And the picture on the monitor screen was just a straight line, with no movement.
She had gone for ever. return to the divine .... forever.

The Things I Love About You

I love the way you make me laugh
I love the way you make me cry

Tears of joy stream from my eyes
As I hear your voice, a loving surprise.

I love you when you're angry
I love you when you're sad

I love you when you're glad
When you tell me of the day you had

I love you truly
I love you deeply

Ever since the day
I let you meet me

I missed you when you left
I miss you now more than ever

Making a mistake that I regret
Hoping that you are a forgiver

Without you, my life is strife
But now I ask for a second chance

Be with me and start a life
Together forever, an eternal dance

I wait for you as the days go by
My love is growing inch by inch

I cannot wait to see you again
But I wait for you, and your sweet smile

I love you

Friendship Love Quotes

True love is falling in love with your best friend, and only then, will you find the meaning of happiness.

Boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever.

Forget who hurt you yesterday, But don't forget who loves you tenderly today.

A boy love this girl
but the girl didn't mind.
One day the boy got sick
and was about to die.
Then the girl asked,
"Why are you leaving me?"
then the boy answered,
"so I can be your angel
and love you forever."

A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe ...forever.

How Can You Be Friends
With Someone If Everytime
You Look At Them It Makes
You Want Them Even More?

Should I Smile Because You're My Friend Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?

Forget The Times You Walked By,
Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry,
Forget The Time You Held My Hand,
Forget The Sweet Things If I Can,
I Can No Longer Pretend,
I Have To Remember Now
That You're Just A Friend.

True love is when you have to watch a friend leave, with the knowledge that you might never see him again. But you know he'll be in your mind and heart forever...

As I sat here I was trying to think of all the times
you hurt me and made me cry. . .
Hoping and wishing
it would make me like you less.
But it didn't. Because all the times
I could remember were the ones
when you showed me that you cared. . .
I didn't want to believe that
you ever did You walk by me everyday and say hello.
Everyday you take time out to listen to me.
You talk to me, smile at me, laugh with me,
and have fun with me.
Well, I talk, smile and laugh too,
but inside I'm hurting.
Deep down it hurts to be with you
because I love you and you are only a friend.

How can you be friends with someone when everytime you see them you want them even more?!
There are no such things as strangers, only friends we haven't met yet.
You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can by trying to get other people interested in you.
Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship, never.
However rare true love may be, it is less so than true friendship.
Between men and women there is no friendship possible.
There is passion, enmity, worship, love, but no friendship.
Love demands infinitely less than friendship.
Friendship is the perfection of love, and superior to love; it is love ...
Love is blind; friendship closes its eyes.
A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway.
A friend loves at all times.
Friendship is Love without his wings!
Friends show their love in times of trouble...
Life is to be fortified by many friendships. To love and to be loved is the greatest happiness of existence.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover: hard to find and lucky to have.
There may be somebody who is thinking about you RIGHT NOW and wishing that you were around. That's the wonderful thing about friendship -you always feel loved and cared about.
The love of my life is the love between friends.
No love, no friendship, can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever.
Material things can't make the soul whole. The only the love, trust, and loyalty of friends can do that.

Kepak Sayap Sang Mepati Putih

Oh, masih kulihat kepakan sayap itu
menari-nari meyibak kabut kebisuan
menggapai lembah-lembah yang kelu
mencari jawab dari sebuah perjalanan
pekik semangatnya menggema
membelah jenggala alam semesta
akar-akar kehidupan coba diraihnya
berbekal kebulatan tekad yang bergelora
satu persatu jejak itu semakin jelas
tercetak tebal dalam hatinya
lalu terjalin sebuah makna
merajut arti yang dikandungnya
sayap-sayap itu masih kulihat
kepak-kepak itu masih kudengar
tak ada rasa lelah dan bosan terlihat
hanya keinginan yang semakin menguat
sayatan dan goresan luka
tak hanya oleh akar dan ranting
perih dan sedih tertoreh
dari jeritan penghuni rimba raya
merpati putih tak jua menyerah
terus menyibak rahasia alam semesta
kulihat jejak penuh luka
membawa sebuah harapan dan kisah yang nyata

Cinta Sang Merpati

Ku terima untaian kata 
dari sejuta merpati yang terbang mencari cinta
Mereka menorehkan setiap goresan ungkapan hati mereka 
dalam dinding-dinding maya,
Mereka penuhi setiap sudut kehidupan cinta.

dengan bahasa cinta yang begitu pekat... 


Cinta.. untaian kata yang tak terucap. 

terangkai dari sejuta rasa yang bergejolak.
Cinta.. bahasa dari seribu ingin yang meluap.
Datang dengan tiba-tiba, 
menyusup ke ruang hati yang terdalam
Membuat seakan segalanya indah..  
sampai insan terbuai sudah
Cinta bukan kata semata.. . 
pengorbanan yang jauh lebih disandangnya
Cinta bukan hasrat yang terpendam  
yang terus pudar lalu hilang lenyap
Cinta seperti bintang..  
yang hanya akan bersinar dikala malam
Cinta seperti sebuah barisan puisi  
yang hanya akan begitu indah ditutur seorang pujangga
Cinta, demikianlah cinta.. 
diciptakan mulia bagi setiap kehidupan

perjalanan sebuah sungai

Kadang aku berpikir....
kapankah kita akan bertemu
pada satu tujuan di penghujung jalan
liku liku yang telah ku lalui
dalam perjalanan yang panjang
apakah aku menyusuri alur yang salah?
atau ... masih terlalu panjang alur yang harus di lalui
untuk tiba kepada luasnya lautan???

bukan mauku jika aku masih saja
berputar putar menyusuri lereng lereng bukit
ketika ku lalui jalan pintas, menjadi sebuah air terjun..
aku terhempas pada cadas....
dan danau itu menampungku....
ku coba lagi tuk mencari jalan..
agar bisa aku mengalir dan bermuara pada laut
lautan kasih dan cintamu.
seluas samudera kerinduan yang tak berujung.
 
tapi, celah demi celah menangkap perjalananku,
berkelok, bercabang dan memperangkap aku dalam muara semu.

dalam kepenatan.... sering aku bertanya..
adakah lautan itu ada?
lautan kasih dan sayangmu?
akankah ada akhir yang indah dari paerjalananku yang panjang ini?
benarkah laut itu menungguku???

Mungkin sebenarnya tak perlu kutanyakan
dan mungki pula aku tidak perlu menunggu jawabmu

Karena di dasar jiwaku, masih ada nyanyian cintamu bersenandung
hanya terkadang aku terperangkap dalam resah
akan tulusnya penantianmu untukku...
saat ku mulai letih dengan perjalan ku ini..
aku ingin segera bertemu dengan mu, kembali padamu dengan seluruh rasa ku.
Entah kapan, tapi ku mohon segeralah...

Arti mencintai

Sangatlah menyakitkan mencintai seseorang, tetapi tidak dicintai olehnya. Tetapi lebih sakit, bila mencintai dan tidak pernah menemukan keberanian untuk memberitahu dia apa yang kamu rasakan. Hanya perlu satu menit untuk menghancurkan seseorang, satu jam untuk menyukai seseorang, satu hari untuk mencintai seseorang tetapi membutuhkan seumur hidup untuk melupakan seseorang.

Mungkin Tuhan menginginkan kita untuk bertemu dengan orang yang tidak tepat sebelum bertemu dengan yang tepat. Jadi ketika! kita akhirnya bertemu dengan orang yang tepat, kita akan tahu betapa berharganya anugerah tersebut.
Cinta adalah ketika kamu membawa perasaan, kesabaran dan romantis dalam suatu hubungan dan menemukan bahwa kamu peduli dengan dia.
Hal yang menyedihkan dalam hidup adalah ketika kamu bertemu seseorang yang sangat berarti bagimu. Hanya untuk menemukan bahwa pada akhirnya menjadi tidak berarti dan kamu harus membiarkannya pergi. Ketika pintu kebahagiaan tertutup, yang lain terbuka. Tetapi kadang-kadang kita menatap terlalu lama pada pintu yang telah tertutup itu sehingga kita tidak melihat pintu lain yang telah terbuka untuk kita.
Teman yang terbaik adalah teman dimana kamu dapat duduk bersamanya dan merasa terbuai, dan tidak pernah mengatakan apa-apa dan kemudian berjalan bersama. Perasaan seperti itu adalah percakapan termanis yang pernah kamu rasakan. Benarlah bahwa kita tidak tahu apa yang kita dapatkan sampai kita kehilangan itu. Tetapi benar juga bahwa kita tidak tahu apa yang hilang sampai itu ada.
Memberikan seseorang semua cintamu tidak pernah menjamin bahwa mereka akan mencintai kamu juga !!!
Jangan mengharapkan cinta sebagai balasan, tunggulah sampai itu tumbuh didalam hatinya. Tetapi jika tidak, pastikan dia tumbuh didalam hatimu. Ada hal yang sangat ingin kamu dengar tetapi tidak akan pernah kamu dengar dari orang yang kamu ingin dengar. Tetapi jangan sampai kamu menjadi tuli walaupun kamu tidak mendengar itu dari seseorang yang mengatakan itu dari hatinya.
Jangan pernah berkata selamat tinggal jika kamu masih ingin mencoba. Jangan menyerah selama kamu merasa masih dapat maju.
Jangan pernah berkata kamu tidak mencintai orang itu lagi bila kamu tidak bisa membiarkannyapergi. Cinta datang kepada orang yang masih mempunyai harapan walapun mereka telah dikecewakan. Kepada mereka yang masih percaya, walaupun mereka telah dikhianati. Kepada mereka yang masih ingin mencintai, walaupun mereka telah disakiti sebelumnya dan kepada mereka yang mempunyai keberanian dan keyakinan untuk membangun kembali kepercayaan.
Jangan melihat dari wajah, itu bisa menipu. Jangan melihat kekayaan, itu bisa menghilang.
Datanglah kepada seseorang yang dapat membuatmu tersenyum karena sebuah senyuman dapat membuat hari yang gelap menjadi cerah.
Berharaplah kamu dapat menemukan seseorang yang dapat membuatmu tersenyum. Ada saat di dalam kehidupanmu dimana kamu sangat merindukan seseorang, Kamu ingin mengambil mereka dari mimpimu danbenar-benar memeluk dia.Berharaplah bahwa kamu dapat bermimpi tentang dia, yang berarti mimpilah apa yang ingin kamu mimpikan, pergilah kemana kamu ingin pergi, jadilah sesuai dengan keinginan kamu, karena kamu hanya hidup sekali dan satu kesempatan untuk melakukan apa yang kamu inginkan.
Semoga kamu mendapat cukup kebahagiaan untuk membuat kamu bahagia, cukup cobaan untuk membuat kamu kuat, cukup penderitaan untuk membuat kamu menjadi manusia yang sesungguhnya, dan cukup harapan untuk membuat kamu bahagia.
Selalu letakkan dirimu pada posisi orang lain.Jika kamu merasa bahwa itu menyakitkan kamu, mungkin itu menyakitkan orang itu juga.
Kata-kata yang ceroboh dapat mengakibatkan perselisihan, kata-kata yang kasar bisa membuat celaka, kata-kata yang tepat waktu dapat mengurangi ketegangan, kata-kata cinta dapat menyembuhkan dan menyenangkan. Permulaan cinta adalah dengan membiarkan orang yang kita cintai menjadi dirinya ! sendiri dan tidak membentuk mereka menjadi sesuai keinginan kita. Dengan kata lain kita mencintai bayangan kita yang ada pada diri mereka.
Orang yang bahagia tidak perlu memiliki yang terbaik dari segala hal.Mereka hanya membuat segala hal yang datang dalam hidup mereka. Kebahagiaan adalah bohong bagi mereka yang menangis, mereka yang terluka, mereka yang mencari, mereka yang mencoba. Mereka hanya bisa menghargai orang-orang penting yang telah menyentuh hidup mereka.
Cinta mulai dengan senyuman, tumbuh dengan kemesraan dan berakhir dengan air mata.Masa depan yang cerah berdasarkan pada masa lalu yang telah dilupakan Kamu tidak dapat melangkah dengan baik dalam kehidupan kamu sampai kau melupakan kegagalan kamu dan rasa sakit hati.
Ketika kamu lahir, kamu menangis dan semua orang di sekeliling kamu tersenyum.Hiduplah dengan hidupmu, jadi ketika kamu meninggal, kamu satu-satunya yang tersenyum dan semua orang di sekeliling kamu menangis.

cinta dan keikhlasan

 

Pagi itu, ketika keihklasan terjaga dari tidur nyamannya
Cinta membelai manja akan kerinduan kasih sayang.
Ketika bibir mungil cinta menapaki kehangatan ragawi, keikhlasan menghela nafas akan sebuah kejujuran dan kesetiaan.
Ketika keharuman cinta memeluk keikhlasan dengan pesona yang teramin ni khan nampak sentuhan penuh nurani yang tertapaki kesungguhan hati.
Keihlasan memang terlahir untuk cinta, ataukah emang kedua-duanya.
Dalam relung kehidupan keihklasan dan cinta saling berbagi akan makna sebuah kebersamaan.
Mengarunginya tanpa sebuah keterpaksaan, karena cinta dan keihklasan selalu bagai air dengan gelas, saling mengisi walau terkadang tumpah sana-sini.
Keikhlasan khan selalu melindungi kemurniaan cinta dalam sanubarinya, selalu ada untuk cinta,
Demikian cinta khan selalu menyertai keikhlasan dalam alunan jejak kepastian nurani. Ketika sedih menyelimuti cinta, keikhlasan menemani dengan suatu kesungguhan yang termaklumi.
Menyayangi, mengasihi dan menentrami kegalauan cinta akan sebuah makna kehidupan terzalimi.
Air mata cinta tergerai ketika keikhlasan mengatakan, I luv u…,
Sebuah penghargaan akan kesetiaan, pengorbanan yang terlahir untuk cinta sejati.
Sebuah perjalanan yang tak khan berakhir karena sebuah tapak akan kejujuran dan kasih sayang telah terpatri dalam alunan langkah cinta dan keikhlasan dalam menerawangi warna-warni duniawi.

larut malam

malam semakin larut…
aku diam…bukan takut
hening dan sepi di jiwa menggelayut
akankah esok hari pagi ku sambut
malam tambah larut..
aku harap esok hari
nadiku masih berdenyut
bahkan hingga tubuh ini tua dan keriput
dan semoga kebahagiaan selalu mengikut

lukisan pagi

ku lukis pagi ini dalam beningnya embun pagi
sebening cinta suci
Larut malam pun ku tulis dalam sajak kelam sang pemuja hati
sekelam kasih sayang yang aku miliki.
selalu aku jalani dengan sepenuh hati……….

resah

resah dan gelisah terasa ketika detik detik terakhir engkau kadir,,kata yang aku nanti tidak juga tertuang ,,apakan mampu engkau ucapkan kata itu buatku???…aku tidak tau pasti apakah kau mampu atau tidak karena semua kata kata yang akan terucap sudah tertuang semua dari langkah dan gerakmu menghampiriku dalam hari hari terakhir ini

andai

andai semua kata kata dan cerita cerita dalam karyaku ini adalah kisah nyata dalam hidupku, mungkin aku tidak kan mampu membendung suka dan duka yang akan datang silih berganti,,,andai semua kata kata indah ini mampu kulukis setiap hari betapa menumpuknya kertas kertas gambar dan cat warna yang akan tertuang,,,akupun takkan mampu mendapat belaian belaian manis setiap hari dan akupun takkan mampu mendapat sakit hati dari perlakuan perlakuan kasih yang pahit jika itu ada,,,oh andai saja semua ini benar adanya aku hanya akan mampu berucap terimakasih buat semuanya karena papun ini aku harus menerimanya karena takdir dan nasib tidak bisa dirubah dalam sekejab,,,,wahai kasih yang bersembunyi dibalek layar lebar ini dimana dirimu,adakah engkau mendengarkan keluhan dan curahan hari ini????…wahai kasih yang belum sampai dimana gerangan dirimu yang bersembunyi dibalik awan dan hujan,akankan engkau menyapaku dan menghampiriku????dan adakah seorang belahan jiwa yang akan menjadi kasihku?????,,,,hayal dan hayal takkan pernah berhenti sampai disini…..

gemuruh

gemuruh ombak dilautan luas tak mampu mengalahkan gemuruh dadaku ketika engkau menyapa,,,laut luas tak seluas cinta yang kumiliki,, tak seluas kasih yang kuciptakan buatmu aku akan selalu mengoleksi kisah hari hari kita yang entah sampai kapan akan terbentang dihadapan semua orang karena kita akan mengikrarkan kisah kasih diantara kita berdua..

belahan dunia

diujung belahan dunia manapun kau berada aku akan menantimu, aku akan hadirkan panorama cinta yang kulukis dengan tinta emas yang kumiliki,aku akan hiasi dengan pita berwarna pink,,andai kau tau betapa rapi dan indahnya kukemas asa ini mungkin kau akan pulang manemuiku dalam keadaan apapun ,,,aku tak akan mengeluh ,,aku tak akan berkomentar tentang pulangmu dalam ragaku karena seperti janji kita dulu aku akan menerimamu apa adanya….

takkan ku lupa

kau tak kan pernah kulupakan dalam ingat dan benakku karena kau adalah satu satunya belahan jiwa yang tersimpan dalam ragaku,,,kau tak kan pernah terlewatkan dalam canda gurauku karena kau adalah topik pembicaraanku sehari hari,,,mampukah ku melupakanmu?/,,mampukah ku melewatimu??,,walau hanya sedetik dalam ingat takkan pernah kumampu melakukannya,,aku sayang kamu,aku juga tak ingin semua kisah kasih diantara kita ada yang tertinggal karena semua tercipta karena kau dan aku saling menyayangi…..

kesendirianku

dalam kesendirianku tak pernah terbayang akan hadirmu disampingku,,dalam sunyiku tak pernah terbayang akan lambaian tanganmu menggapaiku,,adakah asa yang kau bawa dalam jiwamu buat diriku????…adakah semua yang tercipta dalam raga kan menjadi milikku untuh????…hadirmu dan lambaian tanganmu sangat membuatku terpana akan hadirmu didetik detik penantianku..

bahagia

hari ini aku bahagia karena dia menghampiriku dan mengucapkan sayangnya padaku,kemana duka yang semalam datang karena tak ada kabar beritanya??masa bodo dengan itu yang jelas hari ini aku bahagia,,aku ingin menumumkan pada semua mahluk yang berada dimuka bumi ini karena hari ini aku seneng,karena hari ini aku bahagia dan karena hari ini aku ringan melangkah itu semua karena hadirmu dan cintamu….

tabir

tabir hidupmu adalah sebuah pengorbanan yang berat buatku ungkap tapi aku harus melakukannya agar aku tau apakah aku ada dibalik tabir itu..satu persatu akan kubuka tirainya,satu persatu akan ku susun didalam jiwa ini,aku tidak akan menyerah buat melakukannya hingga kutemukan asa tertulis namaku didalamnya,aku juga tidak akan melepaskanmu jiga asa itu ada dan tercipta buatku…terimakaisih buatmu karena engkau ijinkan aku membuka tabirmu karena sebenarnya diantara kita sudah tercipta sebuah asmara yang damai ….

menanti

hari ini sudah hampir seperempatnya berjalan,namun sia sia aku menanti hadirmu diujung jalan yang sepi tanpa ada bayang yang melintas,,,aku hanyalah sebuah raga yang kesepian dalam hayal,aku adalah sebuah sosok yang nelangsa dalam bayangan,tapi aku juga adalah sesosok manusia yang butuh akan cinta dan kasih,karena itu aku menanti hadirmu diujung jalan itu,cintai aku,sayangi aku dan kasihilah aku….

sayang

sayang kenapa tiba tiba saja asa yang kau titip padaku samar dan kaku?????…sayang kenapa indahnya senyumnu hambar terlihat olehku????aku tidak ingin semuanya begitu saja,karena semuanya belum sempurna aku lihat,ak semua yang ada padamu hanya tercipta buatku dan hanya buat ddiriku dalam hari hari sepanjang waktuku….

tiba tiba

indah sangat indah kenangan diantara kita …semua kita ciptakan karena cinta yang bersemi diantara kita begitu damai,begitu teduh dan begitu manis,,,,namun kenapa tiba tiba saja semua lenyap ,,kenapa tiba tiba saja semua musnah dan kenapa tiba tiba saja hengkang dari hadapanku…..aku ingin semua yang pernah tercipta diantara kita adalah kenangan yang tak akan pernah ternoda oleh asa lain namun aku ingin kenangan itu tersimpan rapat rapat dalam sanubarimu agar suatu saat kalau kau ingin melihatnya masih tertata rapi…

ragu

aku ragu dengan dia ,aku resah dengannya karena kasihnya tidak nampak ,karena sayangnya samar,,haruskah aku menyapa untuk mengetahui kepastiannya????….aku bimbang ,aku tidak bisa menyapa,aku tidak bisa menghampirinya,biarkanlah sayang ini lenyap dan pergi seperti dia yang pergi dan berlalu begitu saja dariku….

kesal

kesal kesal kesal………cinta membawaku kejalan kebencian memandangmu,mendengarmu dan mengingatmu……masa bodo dengan dirimu,masa bodo dengan ocehanmu,masa bodo dengan senyummu karena aku lagi kesal denganmu…enyahlah engkau dari hadapanku,enyahlah engkau dari ingatanku,dan pergi jauhlah engkau dari hai hariku…

indah

indah sungguh indah kenangan yang engkau ciptakan bersama usainya malam tanpa selimut sinar rembulan…aku pasrah dalam hangetnya selimut tebal kulitmu…aku terbuai oleh manisnya rayu yang engkau lontarkan ketika kita bersama dalam kasih yang tercipta tanpa ada komando…aku menikmati sejuknya bibir mungilmu ketika menuturkan kisah kisah asmara yang kita jalani sehari hari..aku ingin semua kisah yang ada takkan pernah memudar dan takkan pernah hilang ditelan waktu karena aku sangat sayang padamu

mimpi

mimpi buruk selalu menghantui disetiap langkah kakiku tentang pedasnya ucapan selamat malammu yang engkau lontarkan tadi malam,aku bingung apa arti semuanya,aku juga gak ngerti kanapa demikian,haruskah aku pejamkan mata atau menutup mata sementara dihatiku selalu menggemakan namamu karena aku suka kamu….